Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life.
This post is very personal for me. I’ve been transitioning into a new phase in my life. I have been working on some major life changes and to be quite honest, I think I hit my wall. It may seem like incoherent rambling, but I don’t bring it full circle in the end. I typed what was on my mind. I didn’t bother to edit, because it’s late and I’m just saying what’s on my heart.
My heart: I haven’t figured that party out yet, at the very basic level of understanding I will take it that I need to remain positive.
So many times our negative feelings and emotions can/will cause us to project. These circumstances, can start to manifest in real life due to our negative outlook, unknowingly of course. It’s the manifesting (or as I call it self-sabotaging) that I have worked so hard to overcome, but it still seems like I have a long way to go. I want to have a positive outlook on life. I want to be not only mentally but spiritually free from past transgressions (real or imagined).
My heart. My thoughts. My actions.
I am learning to trust in the Lord again. And by trust, I mean have unadulterated faith that HE will see me through. I can freely admit that I am guilty of blaming God and denying him when things don’t go my way. I have lost faith so many times, that I figured I wasn’t worthy and that God couldn’t hear me. I must have done something wrong, why else would I go unnoticed. Like many people, I look around and see so many people being blessed-whether it’s dreams coming true or a prayer being answered it’s happening all around me. While I’m still stuck in the same place.
But I realized I wasn’t really doing anything to change my circumstances. Once I let the negativity into my life, I realized the course I was on, the things that were occurring happened because of me. Instead of continuously placing 100% of my faith in God, I was convinced he wasn’t listening. Even worse, that I didn’t need HIM. But I know (now) that I was not only doing a disservice to myself but also my family. I was moody and unbearable.
I must have faith.
Must remain positive.
Even when things get rough and my days turn cold and dark I need to realize: I can’t expect my children to trust and follow God’s path if I am not believing and trusting myself.
Some days, I feel like my words are empty Admittedly that my prayers are meaningless. I went through a phase where I did, because it was expected. Not because I wanted to. But because it was expected.
The heart is where issues of life spring forth. What we allow to enter our hearts will affect our thoughts, actions and even our bodies. The condition of one’s heart, determines the course of one’s life.
That is why Jesus, who bequeathed to us His peace, tells us, “…Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid” (John 14:27). So if we want to walk in His peace and rest, we need to guard our hearts and not let them spiral into negative thoughts, worry and fear. The Book of Wisdom also tells us that a peaceful and cheerful heart promotes health (Proverbs 17:22).
Beloved, there may be many things in our lives that we want to “guard”, such as our families, health or careers. But God wants us to guard our hearts above all else, and He will guard the rest!